Sometimes I feel like I am on a never-ending treadmill to get it done, check it off. In an effort to have more experiences and be more present, my homebody hubby and I have lost most of our quiet weekends. It seems with volunteering, races, going out, seeing friends, plays, festivals, concerts, and sporting events; we have had later nights and busier weekends. With all of that I have been pleased that we have spent our resources of time and money on those experiences over stuff. That being said I am tired.
Maybe it seems wrong to those who are naturally extroverted and gain energy from being surrounded by people and stimuli a plenty! Give me a Saturday at home with a cold rain falling, meaningless TV, some hot tea, PJs, and cats to cuddle and I feel recharged. It is not that I have not done anything today. We went grocery shopping, a necessity unless your idea of sustenance is Cheerios and 2% organic milk. Also I cleaned the house and made my cat’s homemade cat food. The difference was I did them in my own time and did not have to fit them in before jetting off to an activity. I love doing these things with my husband and my friends. In fact in November Hubby and I will be catching the Atlanta leg of the Minimalists’ Less is Now Tour and my best friend and I will be going to see my cat hero, Jackson Galaxy, and get a signed copy of his new book. I am really looking forward to those.
I think the key is balance. Lately, I haven’t felt like I have had any lazy/do nothing time. All rest was like breathing in the pause. I found myself at the end of this crazy week looking forward to this weekend where we had nothing planned like it was Christmas. I think maybe I have said yes to too many outside things and not yes to me enough. I can enjoy all of those things, but only if my introverted self gets a break. Meditation provides some space for me to evaluate and I feel like that has helped me look at things more clearly and really be able to assess. “How do I really feel?” It has been one of the surprising benefits of regular practice.
Clearing clutter and trying to live more simply and minimally has shortened the time and frustration I used to feel cleaning up. I still think I can simplify more and this last month we definitely purchased more than we had the previous couple of months. A lot of it was necessary, or at least it seemed to be at the time. I don’t know maybe after a lazy weekend I will be able to look at things with a clearer head. Here’s to cold rainy Saturdays watching mindless TV in the clean house with a fridge full of human and kitty food.