I have not written in a little while because we have had a lot going on, most recently a 4 day trip to San Diego to visit my husband’s mom and brother. We rarely get to see just them. Usually when we go to California we try to see as much of the whole family as possible and that is well over 45 people all together. Quiet moments with Dung’s mom are few and far between when we have everyone together. It was lovely a low key visit. We spent a little time sightseeing on our own and most of our time just hanging out with his mom, meeting her friends, and eating more food than I typically consume in a month. For his family “eat” roughly translated means “I love you.” So we ate. I am not going to recap everything from the last 2 weeks but now that I am more mindful I did notice a few things I thought I would mention.
- I was able to meditate and do my daily Vinyasa Flow even on vacation. I meditated shorter but still found time. In fact, it is now just what I do so it was not even really about finding time.
- I was more relaxed and peaceful while we were in California than I have been in the past. I credit meditation and my attempts to stay present and in the moment.
- I had a cool moment with a friend and colleague this week. She wanted to meet for lunch and talk about life, her career, etc. She said “I don’t know I just wanted to sit down with you because you are one of the few people I know who just seems genuinely happy.” In that moment I realized I am genuinely grateful, peaceful and content and I guess in short that is happiness. It certainly took long enough to realize it.
- We cut the cable chord. We decided we wanted to watch less TV and that we just could not justify throwing away the money anymore. We have a longer term goal, our retirements and move to the pacific northwest. We have an antennae for local TV and we stream Netflix, Amazon and Sling. Saving over $100.00 a month.
- I have gotten to volunteer more with the Good Mews Cat Shelter and that should make me stressed and feel like I have less time but I actually feel more satisfied and calm.
- I was listening to that same friend mentioned above and she said, “I am never off of work. Even on vacation I am just not at the office, but I am still at work. I can never be off.” Wow, that was another full circle moment. Just ask my husband, a few years ago that was me. I would have thought “of course not. It’s work.” This time I had a physically different reaction I felt sad and a little sick. I explained to her she would burn out and she had to carve out things that mattered to her and devote time to them. It was like an out-of-body experience, because a few years ago someone was telling me that.
- Lastly, I had a weird moment at work. I am responsible for keeping our rate information at my job. I was out last week on vacation and my supervisor redid a chart I have been maintaining for years. She sent it to me and I said “Thanks I will update my spreadsheet.” She came to my office and said don’t just use mine from now on I like it better. Immediately without thinking I started defending my old spreadsheet. I was going on about it and I suddenly heard myself and just stopped. All day it was kind of in the back of my mind. This time I kept asking myself, “why does this matter to me so much?” I am not sure I answered that question. Instead I just accepted that it does, but it should not and I let it go. You know what? We still have the info we need.
I hope you have been having a good two weeks and your summer is off to a successful beginning.