So I am really working on myself and for the most part I would say it is going pretty well. I have definitely made some positive changes and reaped some surprising rewards as discussed in my previous post. With progress and mindfulness comes the recognition of how far we still have to go and how we are always a work in progress. I guess we should be happy to still be employed in this work, the alternative is not great.
So what am I struggling with right now? Gossip. It is like the national past time of my office and even when I set my intention to be compassionate and act out of kindness and gratitude I still find that I can spiral into this easily.
There is some good news. I do find that I am far more aware that I am participating in gossip than before, where it was sort of an unconscious act. It may be a few minutes into the session but I find I will become hyper aware that I am participating in something that brings no value and might be damaging to someone else. I do try a few things, I am not just going along aimlessly. If I hear friends I am visiting with descend into gossip, I try to excuse myself. If it is starting up outside my office I will close my door like I am about to take a conference call. For the most part the challenging times are when the gossip is about someone I am personally struggling with myself. That does not make me proud; I think it makes me human.
So I am interested in what you struggle to improve. If like me it is gossip, are you doing something I am not? Do you have any tips? Once I am done with session and I am back in my office and the contact high you get from gossiping with your friends is gone it leaves me feeling empty and a little ashamed.