From Type A to Type Ahh

Be the Change You Wish to See in the World – Ghandi

Breathing into Another Year

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Today I am saying good-bye to 47.  Tomorrow I start being 48.  I am not hung up on my age.  I don’t freak out about the big 50.  Yes if you are reading this in real-time you now know that I was born on April 1st.  Yes insert obligatory “you were born a fool” joke here.  First time I heard that; I swear.  Also in my defense I would like to point out that the need to disprove my birth destiny may well be the genesis of my Type A perfectionism.

I do feel like I am leaving 47 a little more peaceful, purposeful and centered.  I think I am learning, not to Lean In ( I was sort of already all over that) but to breathe into it.  I have been working on being more present and getting clarity.  I have been trying to find what is truly important to me and then actually living those priorities.  Some weeks are harder than others.  This week brought a lot of challenges and also, though it pains me to say it, (recovering perfectionist here) a lot failure on the path to the new more peaceful and zen version of myself.

Ever have one of those days where you feel like a pinball machine on TILT?  That was yesterday.  I had every intention to be that better version of me, well the road to where again, is paved with good intentions.  Somewhere on that familiar trip down the rabbit hole, I got this sensation of watching myself like an observer.  In that moment, with my boss no less, I was able to stop everything and breathe.  After that I was able to begin anew and as my husband would say taking things less personally.

I have many wonderful work mentors and recently one of them, Frank, the most Zen water engineer with a PhD in philosophy, said to me “Kathy you have to learn to be passionate without caring.”  To be fair, I love Frank but I only understand about 1/4 of what he says to me.  I had filed this away as another of Frank’s riddle of the Sphinx I would never get.  I have to say today when resolving one of the big issues from yesterday.  I finally got it.  I was able to begin walking that long, winding road, paved with more failure, toward that detached passion Frank was shining a light on for me.  That is a pretty good birthday present, also giving myself a week off with my husband during his spring break.  Namaste!

Author: fromtypeatotypeahh

I am a water resource manager in Atlanta Georgia. I am married with no two legged children but we have have 5 cats. I love reading, writing, running, meditation, travel and staying at home spending quiet time with my husband and cats. I am passionate about cooking and health. I love learning new things and growing. I am very interested in and beginning to explore minimalism to find real value in what matters.

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